So i cant sleep and alot is on my mind…first off im graduating in two weeks. Im excited but at the same time im FUCKING SCARED. Im scared that I might fail in something, that my life is going to be the complete opposite of what I want it to be, and im scared I wont be able to see the people that mean the most to me because were going our different ways. I really hope that my upcoming achievements happen more than the mistakes I know I will make. Second, BOYS. Theres this guy hes cute hes funny and we have been talking for a while and im actually starting to like him, too bad from every girl all I hear is that hes just a player who wants some. That kind of makes me iffy about things. But then I got this guy that ive bren crazy for since summer who I say to myself im over him but thats not really the case I actually still think about it here and then but try to play it off like I dont because I dont want to be the idiot who is still not over a guy that fucked me over…i want to forget him I NEED to forget him. so that new guy seems like a great guy except that hes a player and im done with guys like that. I just want a guy who can treat me right not be immature not play with my heart like everyone else and will be able to accept me for me not the girl who he wants me to be. Ill see where this other guys go and cross my fingers that he can be the perfect fit to what I want.

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Every time I stay up late when everythings quiet, all I think about is the mistakes I couldve changed, why im still not over you, the people who care about me but I treat like shit, and basically think about why life is goddanm COMPLICATED

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